Unfortunately, fortunately

I haven't posted anything on here in the longest time because I've honestly been scared to, I created this blog to get my feelings out and feel better about my life but when I do write, I just want to cry because I relive memories and moments in my life that I definitely don't want to. Anyway, I'm sorry for being absent, lets get to the meat of the matter.

A lot has happened in my life since my last post fortunately and unfortunately. I've stopped working for the distribution company for terrible reason but I won't get into that, just know it wasn't my fault. I tried to convince myself that I wasn't writing any blog posts because I was happy enough to not find solace in writing. But of course, that was a lie.

I've been trying to not soak myself in my tears anymore and force myself in a happier place so that eventually it will come naturally...makes sense to me, I think.

My New Years resolution is to do whatever makes me happy not giving a damn about anybody else and their feelings, might sound selfish but I need to do this. I've been putting others before myself for way to long, unfortunately my conscience won't allow me and I've been failing but the year hasn't ended yet so there's still hope! (Positivity)

Meanwhile, bare with me while I get over my fear of reliving my past and allow myself to open up and be positive!