Leaning towers of pizza.

As funny as this title may sound, I've found it to be relevant to my relationships, i've come to realize that my last relationship didn't work because we weren't working together as a team to make the dream work. I was always giving more than him and he was pulling back, possibly because of his past relationship but that I didn't realize at the time that we needed to work on the past before we looked forward to a future.

I thought by just being faithful and awesome we would've lasted, when I reevaluated my relationship (when it was way too late) I found out that we needed to be two strong towers who wouldn't allow planes or anything to break us down. Unfortunately and fortunately, I'm happy I had that experience so I can now move forward and be not just an awesome girlfriend or a leaning tower of pizza, but a strong tower of love. (You can find this on corny.com but its true) I've become not just a strong tower to take on love and a relationship but a strong tower to take on the world.

It's bittersweet that we have to experience something for ourselves to learn. We wouldn't be who we are today if didn't go through what we did, but coincidentally we wouldn't be who we are if we didn't experience certain things. Think about it.

Magical thinking

I heard this term in one of my classes and it spoke to me, so I've had this title written down even before this post expecting that the title would give me inspiration to write, coincidentally enough, this is an example of magical thinking.

I've never understood why I waited around for things I knew would not happen and it puzzled me, made me think something was wrong with me, maybe I was delusional or living in some sort of fantasy land not realizing what was right in front of me (magical thinking). I convinced myself that things would happen the way I wanted to, I would fight all odds just to get what I wanted but the problem with that is if it was suppose it happen I wouldn't have to fight so hard it would've come naturally and I wouldn't have to force it but silly me, stuck in my magical thinking. This is only applicable to certain situations because of course if you want good grades you know you have to put out the effort but if you believe in date as it relates to relationships etc, you need no effort other than making yourself a great person for your soulmate.

I've allowed myself to live in this fantasy land for quite some time and in all honesty, those were some of the best years of my life, but since recently I've snapped back into reality that I won't always get what I want (when I want) but it will happen if its suppose to. (magical thinking?) And since I've migrated from fantasy land I have been happy, not as happy as I was before but I know it will get there with time and no effort.